Wednesday, January 07, 2009


I have that old song going through my head...

Feelings, nothing more than feelings
Trying to forget my feelings of love
Teardrops rolling down on my face
Trying to forget my feelings of love

I think I'm just being emotional, but tomorrow I start work again and its tearing me up inside...what if...what if I miss Bella too much. I know I work from home, but I can't spend every minute I want WITH her. What if she needs me and I have work obligations...even worse...what if she doesn't need me and is just fine.

I don't want to miss even one minute of her life...she's growing up so fast. She just graduated from newborn diapers to size ones. Its breaking my heart!


Tell me this is just hormones.


The Hansen Family said...

Love,love,love,love her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Nope--not hormones. Just part-and-parcel of the whole "completely surrenduring your heart to someone else" routine. They tell me it gets easier with subsequent children, but I'm on my fifth and still bawl if I have to leave my little one for more than five minutes.

Side note: This *does* end with toddlerhood, however. By then you'd be willing to throw your child to the wolves if only to catch a break! And no one will want her, either, because your newborn baby's most adoring fans will all disappear once she is old enough to stomp, scream, throw fits, spit in your face, and poop man-sized huds in her size 5 diapers. Sorry to have to break it to you, but it's the truth! ;)